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I don't even know where to start.

Im trying to formulate words and sentences in my head...

I have had a lot of adjusting to do since I moved here at the end of April of 08. The main part of it was leaving my close friends... my roommates, back in Atlanta. They are my family. Then of course there was Keith.. Mandy.. Sarah.. AJ.. Joe...Todd...
Since moving here... I have had a time getting adjusted to not being around them all... especially the people I lived with.... and its affected me here... its hard to explain... mainly cause I miss them all so much. And now... one of them is gone.

I got a text message tonite that told me that Dave....smokeycub passed away... and even now I don't know what to say. Six hours later and it really has not sunk in.

So much going on in my head right now but I just can't type it out.. all these memories flooding into my head right now... like my mind is wanting to make sure I don't forget anything now.

I didnt take any pictures of you and me together when I left Atlanta because I was sure I would see you again... you kept saying you and Luke would come visit me here in Chicago...

I still have some of the cookies you made me for xmas... now I dont want to finish them.

I'll try posting something more later.. I just can't right now. I just cant believe you are gone now. I just wish I would wake up right now.

F*ck or Pass game.

The rules are simple.

If you want to f*ck the person who posts this (in this case, me!), send a reply saying "I'd f*ck you." But then, you have to post this in your journal, in exchange.

And yes I am screening all comments.

Ok I'll be a lemming cause I want the attention.


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Full from lunch and ready to answer more questions!

What turns you on the most in men? What do you like about Jim, and what don't you like about Jim? What do you like about me? :)

Hmmmmm. What turns me on the most. I would say a persons attitude/personality turns me on the most. You can be the most perfect looking man in existence but if you have the personality of a rock, I cannot find you attractive. I have to have fun talking to you. Thats always the first thing I look for.

What do l like about Jim... he makes me smile... he is so cute all the time... just the way he acts... oh hell I love everything about him. He came into my life when I had officially given up on trying to date again. He just has this special charm about him that is hard not to love... and I fell right into it. And I am glad I did... I wouldn't want it any other way.

What don't I like... hahaha. Well him and I have talked about this, and he has even mentioned something about it in his post before. He has always been so concerned about what others think about... that he has limited himself on things he has wanted to experience. I used to be the same way, then I just stopped caring what others thought. Not to say I do not value others opinions (and the same goes for Jim)...I am saying that I cannot please everyone, so I just have to stop being so concerned about what others think and I have to be concerned on what makes ME happy. I have told Jim this before when we got into an argument over something. He completely understood... and he saw one of my rare serious sides. He is getting a LOT better about it, to a point that it is a non issue now.

Uh-oh. The "what don't I like" paragraph is bigger than the "what do I like" paragraph. I'm gonna hear about this later. ;p

As for what do I like about the person who asked this question... well even though you do not remember meeting me at a party (*g*), I remember standing right next to you and I got a good vibe from you. That and yer cute as a button. But this goes back to me looking at the personality first. I am looking forward to getting to hang out with you more once I move to Chicago. :)

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Keep em coming. You can reply to this post too. All my post related to the "question meme" will be screened.

Do you believe that China will emerge as the major world power within the next century? What sort of role do you believe the U.S. will have in the next century as well?

In the next century? It is quite possible. Quite honestly from what I have seen from them... they just don't "have it in them" to be anymore than what they are now. I am no expert on their economy, military, etc, so I really cant say much about them. Personally I have not been keeping up with many countries as of late, due to the one I live in is failing so miserably. Just reading reports today... we are in bad bad trouble. I don't know about the next century for us, but I can honestly say we are the laughing stock of the world, thank you George "Dub-a-u" Bush. I know we will bounce back from this, thankfully Bush will NOT be there after this year. We will get through this hurdle. Now if we can just fix all the problems in the USA... we will be good. THAT will be a bigger challenge. Personally... I think USA is in a "slow" decline. I say in 10 years we won't be the country we used to be. Too many variables are just sucking the life out of this country.

Yay Livejournal is working again!

I am still accepting questions. ;p Make me do some thinking, peoples! All comments still screened.

What would you say is your greatest strength? Also, what would you say is your greatest weakness?

Weakness first, LOL. I am too impatient... and I have a short temper. Easy to work up... and takes me a bit to calm down... it takes all of my strength just to control emotions sometimes. Strengths... errrr, heck, I dunno. I don't really feel I am strong at anything, just average at best. I can criticize myself easily, but saying something good about myself... naw... I would rather leave that to others to decide.

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More questions! I'll answer when I can.... gonna be another busy day at work.

The end of the world is near...you have the power to save you, three personal items and one other person from certain destruction. What are the three items, and who is the person?

Oh dear. It would depend on the situation. Items I really don't care about... I don't hold anything that close to me that I would HAVE to save. Besides most of my stuff is electronic... it wouldn't work on a destroyed planet, hehe. As for the person... of course I would take Jim. But at the same time, would Jim want to live if the world is destroyed. Would we be the only two people left? Would we have to fight for our lives every day? Would it be worth living at that point? Personally I would put Jim to safety and do my best to save as many other people as I could, even if I die in the process. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I did not try.

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Moar questions! I am going to open up the last few post and make them available to all, after all. Anonymous posting allowed, comments screened, blah blah blah.

If we went on a date, what would we do?

Hmmmmm, good question! I am not the type to want to go to some place super fancy… I am more the type to want to order a pizza and get some beer and stay at home! LOL. I know… so romantic. Don’t get me wrong… I do like going out. And with said person that asked the question… well I would like to go to some place quiet so we could talk and so I could get to know ya better, since I really have not had the pleasure of really getting to know you. Yeah I would like to bring ya home and snuggle up with ya and watch a movie, probably end up… opps… PG-13… lol. All in all, I really do not plan a whole evening… at least I try not to. Just meet up, do whatever is fun, and take it from there.

Moar questions plz... comments still screened.

First, happy birthday goes out to thatfatboy, who's birthday was yesterday!

The weekend was pretty good. Got to see a friend of mine Friday night who I had not seen in quite awhile, Saturday was Chillos' game... then afterwards we decided to go out to the Eagle for awhile... dear god... its good for me to go out here every once in awhile... to remind myself why I do NOT go out here. So.... boring. The attitude that radiates from that bar is overwhelming... just not my thing anymore. I am really starting to think that I am just not a bar person anymore.

Sunday... well as you all probably saw from my previous post here that I got pierced! Its funny... my nose is not even sore this morning. When I woke up, I almost thought the piercing fell out in the middle of the night.. no discomfort at all. Wonderful!

Ok so its March "ask me anything" time, eh? Heck, why not. Comments are screened... yada yada. I am still keeping this friends only. After the crap I put up with last year with having it open to the public... groan. EDIT: I will go ahead and open this up to ALL. You can be anonymous if ya want. :) And if it is something personal you want to ask me, I will talk to you about it in private if you want so the "whole world" doesn't see it.

2007 had its share of, ahem, great internet celebs. On the radio this morning they wanted people to vote on the best internet craze of 2007. These were the three "contestants" of "Best 2007 Internet craze" category. So I want to know what ya'll think. What was your favorite? Or was there something else that you enjoyed more than these three options? If so, leave a comment!

Poll #1109143 Best Internet Celebrity of 2007
Open to: Friends, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 20

Who do you think was the "best" internet celebrity of 2007?

jamesbeary
I just heard.... read.
I took you being there for granted. I am so sorry.
I never had the pleasure of meeting you in person, and I wanted to so very badly.
There were many times I was down and just seeing you sign online cheered me up.
I was just thinking of you lately and wondering where you were, the last time I talked to you, you were in the hospital.
I just hope wherever you are now, I hope you know you will be so missed. I love you.